Well , today i am not feeling so well . . . work was okay for me but still something in me lurks for more. After work , i join my friend to go for dinner and have a nice walk around the plaza , but although it was nice , something in my heart tells me that i am still not so happy .
This feeling of unhappiness actually started a few days back . . . it came all of a sudden , i don't think i even know how to express it . . . some might say i am just being emotional but then , no one really knows wad happen these few days . . .
I really starting to hate my company for being so lousy at times . . . FAVORITISM is the main culprit that made my company such a pain in the ass . . . well , wad can i do at times ? i am just a normal employee that knows nothing and can do nothing . . .
But wad made me depress the most was "her" . . . its like , she never even gave me a single chance to even know her better . . . giving excuses like , 'u do not even know me much yet' is such a pain in my ass . . . can anyone tell me , how can i get close to her when she would not even let me get near her ? I am seriously out of ideas anymore . . . anyway , she will never be in me anymore , for a person like her , do not deserve a guy as useless as me . . .
well , right now is 2.48am in the morning and i don't feel sleepy at all . . . i have nothing to do in my room and there is no one that is available now for me to talk too . . .
conclusion is , i really hope this feeling will go away soon cuz i do not wanna be in this mood now , i have much other things to think of . . .
Kd Wong
